Finally!

So Sorry it has been so long since I last posted anything. A few things have been going on that have taken up my time and energy. First off I moved. Yup, I finally got out of the uncomfortable situation I was in and got my own place. It is amazing. Sure I don't live on the pretties looking street (Vine...those that know it know what I mean) but when you walk through that tunnel and you come out the other end and all you see are flowers and trees and vines growing everywhere you think "is this real." It is perfection. I am so happy at my new place, however, as with every new place it has its flaws. For instance it has very old wiring, plumbing, and appliances. This is ok by me except that I have no where to plug anything in because there are a total of 3 outlets in my entire apartment. What were they thinking....oh thats right it was built before we relied on all of these crazy things like computers and microwaves. But besides that it is amazingly safe and quiet and I love it.

Second, my job is stressing me out beyond belief and I don't even do anything remotely important. How sad is that. I want to think that people would be lost if I wasn't around but that is a joke. I am totally replaceable which makes it even harder. I love the music industry but when you work for a company that doesn't realize that I need two other jobs just to pay rent...you know you are under appreciated. The other thing that makes it so hard is that I did not come to LA to update artists myspace pages. I want to work in music supervision or publishing. I have just recently started really researching this to death so that when I get the opportunity to do something along these lines I am ready. I have signed up for a conference in Beverly Hills (damn straight) that will help a lot. Now, grated it only cost me an arm and a leg to get into this conference and I have officially increased my credit card debt because of it, but I hope that one day it will all be worth it.

Third, I want to come home. There I said it. Things in Michigan are so much easier. I know that if I go back it wont be the same but I miss it so much. Its hard to explain to people that a phone call does not replace seeing someone in person. I need that personal contact to get me through the day. I have never been a loner and I probably never will but I am alone out here a majority of the time. I have made some good friends but I still feel uncomfortable totally being myself. Its hard when you have made friends, mostly from work since that is all I seem to be doings, but you don't know 100% that you can trust them but they are all you have. I want to believe that they will be there for me if I need them but I cannot ask that of people I have only been associated with for a few months. I'm sure they feel the same way. Oh and dating anyone out here is totally out of the questions. Holy crap the guys out here are crazy! I don't even know how to describe them. Ok here it goes...most of the men seem to be self centered, ego driven, controlling and always looking for someone better. What is that? I have been in LA for Less than three months and I already know I want nothing more then friendship from any of them. I guess that is a good thing since my love life was a mess before I even moved out here.

Alright Im falling alseep so its time to call it a night. I will attempt to stay on top of this now that I have internet in my new place (only took two weeks....story for another time).

Siting - Michael Johns and Brooke White - at Boarders for an Instore I was hosting.

Music - Anything by Passion Pit

Quote - "Claving a good time...Clavalanche....anything CLAV related!"