What to do....?

Yup it has come down to the decision to stay in California and continue to increase my debt or move back to Michigan. It is not as easy of a decision to make as you might think. See if I leave LA I will be leaving the music industry. I want to make it work. My dream to be a music supervisor has not been even remotely fulfilled. I have not had a chance to prove to anyone that this is what I was meant to do. I just want to be given the chance thats all. Things in this industry are just so biased. If you have the experience then you have to know the right people, if you have no experience you are constantly told that "it will take time". Well time is something I do not have a lot of. I want to get shit started. Why do people keep telling me I have to pay my dues and work my way up when I can just jump right in and prove to them I was meant to do this. No one wants to deal with a newbie but no one wants to give one a chance. I want to meet the right people but not just people that will help me further my career, people that will teach me or mentor me and will have my best interest at heart. I get the feeling that I threaten those that are above me because I am so driven and they do what they can to keep me down. Wow I'm whiny tonight...could be that I'm home sick and bored out of my mind. But besides the point. Ugh and I have the shittiest boss. Let me give you some insight...he is not even legally separated from his wife of 18 years and he is dating someone. This someone happens to be our company HR and bookeeper...hmmm fancy that. I have nothing against her because he is the one making the bad decision. He is the boss what could she do. He is such a scum bag...plus he introduced his new girlfriend to his kids...oh yeah he has two little girls. Just looking at him makes me sick. There are so many things wrong with what he is doing. There are so many things wrong with him in general. I just want out. Whatever I am over it...for now. I am so much better than to waste my time worrying about a man that will not be in my life in the next few months....at least as long as I can find another job. Alight Im done bitching for the night...until next time.